I heard this funny saying last week,
"Someone left the backdoor open and let winter in."
I thought it sounded really funny, now I definately agree someone has let winter in!
Today is wet and cold. We are getting the storms today that have been battering parts of Australia for the last little while. It's raining heavily and is bitterly cold.
I probably shouldn't complain as we haven't gotten to minus temperatures here in Auckland, but it is much colder than we're used to! Thank goodness for warm jumpers and hot coffee!
20.6.07
13.6.07
Expectations
It's nice to know that people care enough about me to ask what my plans are for next year. But I mean seriously, it's still a whole six months away. I obviously need to have some idea before then, but to be thinking hard about it now seems almost silly. Why should I be stressing myself out about it now. The chances are that it'll change between now and then anyway.
I feel that in all the questioning there are certain expectations from different people about what I SHOULD do. I understand that the reasons for this are things like they can see some of my strengths and weaknesses and therefore form opinions about what I would be good at. At the same time though, I feel a certain amount of pressure in the suggestions. Or, maybe it's frustration! Frustration that other people can see things about me that I can't or even don't want to see. Frustration that I feel like I haven't got a handle on life and what I'm doing. I know for sure that there is fear somewhere in all of this. I don't want to make the wrong decision, or fail at something. I also don't want to let 'people' down and most of all God.
Something just dawned on me... is this worry? Am I worrying? Is it wasted energy? Am I doing something Jesus teaches against?
Quite possibly, but it's also something I have to face and deal with. Afterall in 6 months this course will be all over and I will have to do something.
Once again I feel a strong sense that I need to rely on God. He has brought me this far and will continue to carry me into the future he has planned for me. I feel I am being reminded to seek wisdom from him and to remember that even if the decision I make isn't the 'best' one, he will still go with me.
Thank you father.
I feel that in all the questioning there are certain expectations from different people about what I SHOULD do. I understand that the reasons for this are things like they can see some of my strengths and weaknesses and therefore form opinions about what I would be good at. At the same time though, I feel a certain amount of pressure in the suggestions. Or, maybe it's frustration! Frustration that other people can see things about me that I can't or even don't want to see. Frustration that I feel like I haven't got a handle on life and what I'm doing. I know for sure that there is fear somewhere in all of this. I don't want to make the wrong decision, or fail at something. I also don't want to let 'people' down and most of all God.
Something just dawned on me... is this worry? Am I worrying? Is it wasted energy? Am I doing something Jesus teaches against?
Quite possibly, but it's also something I have to face and deal with. Afterall in 6 months this course will be all over and I will have to do something.
Once again I feel a strong sense that I need to rely on God. He has brought me this far and will continue to carry me into the future he has planned for me. I feel I am being reminded to seek wisdom from him and to remember that even if the decision I make isn't the 'best' one, he will still go with me.
Thank you father.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)